I think there's something wrong

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Agree with Gwen.............drs and tell him how you honestly feel no masking things no putting a brave face on things, believe me its always ends up being worse if you do that.

It took them years to work out about my mood swings, only when I had a complete breakdown could I start being put back together again, its taken nearly 10 years for me to be able to think 'yes I can do this and yes I can cope with this' but only with the help of some very good people, my GP and a counsellor and some very good CBT therapists and the fact I now take my meds on a daily basis........... I know the consequences if I don't take them I will end up on the floor in apuddle or do something far worse........we all have a time in our lives when we cannot cope with everything life throws at us and we need help, please don't be proud and not seek it ............go and see your GP

[mollichop]

Dec 28, 2013 16:10:00 GMT 1 ladyndibs said:

Dec 28, 2013 15:56:28 GMT 1 gwenoakes said:

I think it could be a combination of things. Firstly the time of year, secondly you have recently stopped smoking, thirdly Charmer went to a new home, fourthly you are not living in your own house, fifthly you have the worry of Jack, not to add into all this a good dose of hormones and the poss effects still lingering from your Dad situation.

You sound as though you are on overload, so go see your GP, tell him honestly how you feel and hopefully he will suggest/prescribe something to get you back on the straight and narrow.

In the meantime have a HUMUNGOUS hug from me and carry on crying if you want to. It isnt going to hurt anyone or anything and maybe, just maybe you will feel better after. XXXXXX

Oh, forgot to add, you are not Superwoman, so take things down a notch and relax and be kind to yourself. XXX

Sound advice as usual from Gwen, it's a bit like cough mixture, it's no good in the bottle you've you to actually take it.

Hey PB huge (((((( hugs)))))) Sweetheart
I think Gwenster has hit the nail on the head soundly supported by LadynNibs comments.
You must speak to your GP aswell as to OH (which I know you have done)
You are NOT a pathetic mess, you are a wonderfully caring, sensitive person, who sometimes takes too much on board. I'm not talking about physical things necessarily but other peoples emotional and spiritual energy can have a huge impact and can affect the more susceptible among us. Your GP can help to right this balance which gives you a breather to get stronger.
Thinking of you and sending lots of positive and healing energy your way xx

[rosemaryhannah]

|Yup agree with Gwen - moreover the situation with Jack would be enough to make me horribly miserable.

[laddiesmum]

Big big hugs PBxx

[jennyb]

Definitely speak to your GP. You might need to offer to come back though, they'll have only booked a standard time slot for your smear and if they're very pushed (which they can be, this time of year), they might not be able to extend your appointment. Just to warn you - it doesn't mean they don't want to help you! OH is a GP and struggles in a busy clinic if patients book in for just one thing and then need another thing looking at whilst they're there. They do care, and they will want to help you - but talking through potential depression and prescribing the right meds deserves adequate time, so just be prepared to pop back in a few days if it's a very busy clinic.

Fingers crossed you feel better soon. Many of us here have had low periods and know how crushing it can feel, but you will get better with the right help x

[troop]

Hope you are feeling well today PB xx

[portiabuzz]

Thanks everyone!!!!! been out for a ride today on Casper it felt great some crying earlier today but I feel calmer now. Got some of those kalms tablets today and they seem to be helping, looking forwards to New Year's Eve going out with OH it's his birthday

It helps talking, feel like I've got a lot of support from you guys too xx thank you

[portiabuzz]

Dec 29, 2013 0:20:00 GMT 1 christine0810 said:

Agree with Gwen.............drs and tell him how you honestly feel no masking things no putting a brave face on things, believe me its always ends up being worse if you do that.

It took them years to work out about my mood swings, only when I had a complete breakdown could I start being put back together again, its taken nearly 10 years for me to be able to think 'yes I can do this and yes I can cope with this' but only with the help of some very good people, my GP and a counsellor and some very good CBT therapists and the fact I now take my meds on a daily basis........... I know the consequences if I don't take them I will end up on the floor in apuddle or do something far worse........we all have a time in our lives when we cannot cope with everything life throws at us and we need help, please don't be proud and not seek it ............go and see your GP

Thank you for being so honest Christine xx

[portiabuzz]

Dec 29, 2013 9:29:42 GMT 1 mollichop said:

Dec 28, 2013 16:10:00 GMT 1 ladyndibs said:

Sound advice as usual from Gwen, it's a bit like cough mixture, it's no good in the bottle you've you to actually take it.

Hey PB huge (((((( hugs)))))) Sweetheart
I think Gwenster has hit the nail on the head soundly supported by LadynNibs comments.
You must speak to your GP aswell as to OH (which I know you have done)
You are NOT a pathetic mess, you are a wonderfully caring, sensitive person, who sometimes takes too much on board. I'm not talking about physical things necessarily but other peoples emotional and spiritual energy can have a huge impact and can affect the more susceptible among us. Your GP can help to right this balance which gives you a breather to get stronger.
Thinking of you and sending lots of positive and healing energy your way xx

Thanks MC it means a lot, I know what you mean about negative energy I feel I've had a lot recently!

Thanks again xxxx

[wills]

Not had time to read all replies so dont know if its been mentioned already, but could it be SAD? X

[gwenoakes]

Glad to hear you have had a good ride, PB. Tiny steps and all that. XXX

[portiabuzz]

Dec 29, 2013 10:09:34 GMT 1 rosemaryhannah said:

|Yup agree with Gwen - moreover the situation with Jack would be enough to make me horribly miserable.

Indeed.

[portiabuzz]

Dec 29, 2013 21:36:29 GMT 1 gwenoakes said:

Glad to hear you have had a good ride, PB. Tiny steps and all that. XXX

Thanks gwennie had a nice night with OH as his brother is back at work now (on nights) so was good to relax

Going To see the horses and doing a bit of shopping for OH bday tomorrow... Think the main thing has been cutting myself some slack and accepting that I can't do and be everything all at once have come on my period a week early which didn't help with hormone / stress levels !!!

But I can't control that or help it so just going with the flow (!!!)

Thanks everyone for all your support

Going docs for smear later...fun

[gwenoakes]

Glad to hear you have taken a step back, PB it will do you good. XXX

Just take one step at a time, including the docs and you WILL get there......honest. XXXX

[HolsBols]

Hey Pb, ive been really struggling recently (very similar to you!) and after 18months drug free i have gone back to the doctors to go back on ADs. A few weeks in and im feeling much more positive about life. Its hard to deal with when you can analyse your life and scream at yourself because there is absolutely no reason to be unhappy but you cant snap out of it.

I echo what everyone else says about speaking to your doctor, but my main advice is that if the doctor prescribes ADs, dont be afraid or ashamed of them. Its the equivalent to a migraine... a dull headache you might be able to get by and manage, but a migraine knocks you out. You wouldnt be ashamed of taking headache tablets and this is no different. Then maybe one day, the migraine will become a dull headache that you can manage without tablets or if youre really lucky itll disappear altogether, but do take the help that is offered.