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Post by portiabuzz on Dec 28, 2013 12:55:02 GMT 1
Hiya everyone Your always so helpful when I've been struggling, I've shared a lot on here and I feel like your all supporting me when I need it...so.... I can't stop crying... Xmas day morning, last night on a night out with friends and my OH, I'm crying right now ?? In about 10 mins il be laughing and fine. It's been like this for last 2 months. Me and OH are living with his brother at the minute saving money for the wedding next August, and on the nights since November we have had alone I've ended up crying and causing an argument. What's going on? ?? I'm going to the doctors for a standard smear test Monday and am wondering if should say something ?? I've had little breakdowns at work, am off now but worries about when I start back. I feel like am under a black cloud and I can't get out I don't feel like doing anything, like riding have just had to force myself to go to the yard but end up feeding only. Not helped by all the stress of trying to help jack not helping me I feel helpless and guilty I can't do this anymore am crying my eyes out now Any help appreciated
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Post by kizi on Dec 28, 2013 13:02:17 GMT 1
Aawww hugs.. Huge ones!
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Post by Liz on Dec 28, 2013 13:08:59 GMT 1
Oh, dear. It sounds like me 2 years ago. I found it hard to cope with the death of my Mum - it left a huge void in my life as I was her main carer before she went into a nursing home where she was looked after so well. I visited her most days. I felt just as you have described and eventually told my doctor - I'd gone to him for a routine check up and he asked if I was OK. I broke down and just said "No, I'm not!" He prescribed an anti depressant and arrnged for some counselling which was very helpful. I still have my moments but find I'm coping well 90% of the time. I think perhaps the strain of living with your b-i-l may be telling a bit but I could be way off the mark there! It is not easy to be under someone else's roof! In addition, you are planning your wedding. My view is that this should not be a stressful thing and I'm currently keeping watch on my niece to prevent her from going into stress overload! Do talk to your GP - a bit of help to get you over this may be just the thing you need. Have you talked with your OH about this or is it something you feel you cannot put into words yet? I do hope you can get some help - and big hugs for you, PB xxxx
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Post by portiabuzz on Dec 28, 2013 13:20:44 GMT 1
Thanks I think it's everything it is hard to live with someone else and your partner, jack I stressing me out I feel so guilty it's putting me off going tbh the wedding is not stressing me out The problem I have is I don't have many people to talk to , I mean let it all out kind of talk to, a lot of you know my issues with my dad etc and I felt stronger talking on here bout it, have done 2 years of counselling before I met my OH, could do I with my counsellor now! I don't want to be this sad messed up person! I'm finally happy now so why the hell am I crying? Sat at home now been crying about 3hours (OH at work). I want to be a mum in the future, we have my OH little boy at the weekends and I have to keep it together, I want a happy future but I feel like am in a black pit and am stuck
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Post by julz on Dec 28, 2013 13:21:01 GMT 1
Tell your doctor.. they may give you a despressant score sheet.. be truthful on it.. if you score over a certain number they will give you something to help.. it may just be stress over the savings for the wedding... or anything.. recently I've been greetin' over tear jerking films, that shouldn't really be tear jerking, but they all seem to be hitting me... I feel so stoopid lol... and dog just looks at me like i'm embarrassing her or something lol
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Post by portiabuzz on Dec 28, 2013 13:23:32 GMT 1
Thinking hormones too?? Will speak to doc
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Post by kafee on Dec 28, 2013 13:45:43 GMT 1
Have a big hug from me. Sounds like hormones to me, but you've got some good advice above. Hope the doc can straighten you out.
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Post by troop on Dec 28, 2013 14:57:26 GMT 1
/could it be S.A.D??? Hormones just stress in general ..... mention it to dr hun and gentle huggles coming your way .... i cant even think about wearing mascara at minute as im in tears for no reason LMAO so its a good job im not a make up wearer take care of you okies xx
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Post by Hannah on Dec 28, 2013 15:46:33 GMT 1
Do talk to the doctor, it could be hormones or something else. I know my mood changes as soon as the clocks change in October, and have been like this since a teenager, I find daylight bulbs make a difference but have spent some time on anti-d's. I feel the best I have for years this winter because I am outside almost all day every day, plus now I am finally content with life! Also it might be worth looking at what is stressing you out or worrying you, write it all down. Then, possibly with your fiance, list next to each entry what you could do to reduce or improve each of them. Sending you hugs and good luck for tomorrow
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Post by gwenoakes on Dec 28, 2013 15:56:28 GMT 1
I think it could be a combination of things. Firstly the time of year, secondly you have recently stopped smoking, thirdly Charmer went to a new home, fourthly you are not living in your own house, fifthly you have the worry of Jack, not to add into all this a good dose of hormones and the poss effects still lingering from your Dad situation.
You sound as though you are on overload, so go see your GP, tell him honestly how you feel and hopefully he will suggest/prescribe something to get you back on the straight and narrow.
In the meantime have a HUMUNGOUS hug from me and carry on crying if you want to. It isnt going to hurt anyone or anything and maybe, just maybe you will feel better after. XXXXXX
Oh, forgot to add, you are not Superwoman, so take things down a notch and relax and be kind to yourself. XXX
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Post by ladyndibs on Dec 28, 2013 16:10:00 GMT 1
I think it could be a combination of things. Firstly the time of year, secondly you have recently stopped smoking, thirdly Charmer went to a new home, fourthly you are not living in your own house, fifthly you have the worry of Jack, not to add into all this a good dose of hormones and the poss effects still lingering from your Dad situation. You sound as though you are on overload, so go see your GP, tell him honestly how you feel and hopefully he will suggest/prescribe something to get you back on the straight and narrow. In the meantime have a HUMUNGOUS hug from me and carry on crying if you want to. It isnt going to hurt anyone or anything and maybe, just maybe you will feel better after. XXXXXX Oh, forgot to add, you are not Superwoman, so take things down a notch and relax and be kind to yourself. XXX Sound advice as usual from Gwen, it's a bit like cough mixture, it's no good in the bottle you've you to actually take it.
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Post by happysnail on Dec 28, 2013 16:19:42 GMT 1
Sending a huge hug. Do speak to your GP (even write it down before you go in to help explain and organise your thoughts). Wise words already in posts above. xxx
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Post by portiabuzz on Dec 28, 2013 19:37:11 GMT 1
Thanks everyone, spoke to OH and am putting too much pressure on myself, talking helped getting there see what tomorrow brings xxx
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Post by happysnail on Dec 28, 2013 19:44:29 GMT 1
Well done portiabuzz, the hardest thing can be saying it out loud. Good luck tomorrow. xxx
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Post by cookie on Dec 28, 2013 20:17:24 GMT 1
Good luck speaking with the GP. If they offer counselling do take it. You have a lot on. Often something on its own would be fine, but it all adds up. There is help out there, I've had pnd, I wish I had had the courage to seek help sooner. Hugs x x
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