Post by Kayti on Aug 14, 2009 8:52:14 GMT 1
Today is the first year anniversary, well technically tomorrow is, but it was the friday evening it happened so it still feels like today. Belle and I lost Katie after 11 years together, such a special lady, at the grand old age of 27. If you had to pick a time, a sunny evening in August in a field full of grass has to be high on the list.
I've spent a lot of this week think about our time together and the horrible time I had dealing with her loss. Belle struggled and I thought I was going to loose her too with the depression and change of personality as well as the illness she suffered. Today isn't going to be a good day but then a year ago I never thought that there would be many good days for a long long time, and I was very wrong. Time does heal
In these 12 months so much has changed with the horses. Brigid arrived immediately to be with Belle and when she in turn needed help and a new home she stayed. It is lovely to see this shy old pony start to blossom and waiting now to be fussed and groomed when before she was uncatchable and preferred her own company.
And now there is Maisie, 4yrs old, cheeky and massive at almost 17hh. My riding horse. She is preparing me for my future in 2 years time with Lilly. She is certainly testing my nerve and reminding me of how much fun it is to ride and teach an opinionated youngster, not just from the ground.
At the time someone wisely told me that Katie was making space for the next horse that needed me, I wasn't sure that was true as I was so sad, but now I believe it and it happened. Within a few very short weeks Lilly arrived. I had wanted her from a weanling, Belle had failed to get pregnant by her father Roviris. A friend had found and bought her before me and a year later in a very roundabout way she came home.
Unexpected that this wonderful horse would ever be mine, she has slotted into my life with purpose. She has been my inspiration, my reason for loosing weight, my reason for riding again. I have a few more years to be ready to deserve her.
And most of all she has so many of Katie's habits and characteristics, perhaps as Katie was ID and Lilly is part ID ? Katie loved having her belly and teats rubbed, would lift her leg like a dog. The first time Lilly did exactly the same thing I laughed so loudly - the chances of having 2 with the same habit
So.. here we are a year further along, tears in my eyes, thanking Katie for once again looking out for me. Her loss was the catalyst that started a chain of events that have bought me here, with a new future, a new herd of ponies to love and the fondest recollections of some great times
This afternoon I'll spend some time with her under the tree. The tulips we planted with her looked fabulous this spring, more for next year i think.
I've spent a lot of this week think about our time together and the horrible time I had dealing with her loss. Belle struggled and I thought I was going to loose her too with the depression and change of personality as well as the illness she suffered. Today isn't going to be a good day but then a year ago I never thought that there would be many good days for a long long time, and I was very wrong. Time does heal
In these 12 months so much has changed with the horses. Brigid arrived immediately to be with Belle and when she in turn needed help and a new home she stayed. It is lovely to see this shy old pony start to blossom and waiting now to be fussed and groomed when before she was uncatchable and preferred her own company.
And now there is Maisie, 4yrs old, cheeky and massive at almost 17hh. My riding horse. She is preparing me for my future in 2 years time with Lilly. She is certainly testing my nerve and reminding me of how much fun it is to ride and teach an opinionated youngster, not just from the ground.
At the time someone wisely told me that Katie was making space for the next horse that needed me, I wasn't sure that was true as I was so sad, but now I believe it and it happened. Within a few very short weeks Lilly arrived. I had wanted her from a weanling, Belle had failed to get pregnant by her father Roviris. A friend had found and bought her before me and a year later in a very roundabout way she came home.
Unexpected that this wonderful horse would ever be mine, she has slotted into my life with purpose. She has been my inspiration, my reason for loosing weight, my reason for riding again. I have a few more years to be ready to deserve her.
And most of all she has so many of Katie's habits and characteristics, perhaps as Katie was ID and Lilly is part ID ? Katie loved having her belly and teats rubbed, would lift her leg like a dog. The first time Lilly did exactly the same thing I laughed so loudly - the chances of having 2 with the same habit
So.. here we are a year further along, tears in my eyes, thanking Katie for once again looking out for me. Her loss was the catalyst that started a chain of events that have bought me here, with a new future, a new herd of ponies to love and the fondest recollections of some great times
This afternoon I'll spend some time with her under the tree. The tulips we planted with her looked fabulous this spring, more for next year i think.
