Post by scared on Sept 8, 2005 22:19:22 GMT 1
i dont know what to do. I dropped out of uni a while ago but i couldn't tell my parents. to cut a v long story short someone else in my family dropped out of uni n they were thrown out of home.i was told if i ever did it I'd nenver be forgiven, id be thrown out and my horses would be sold.
Unfortunatly i got really depressed and found the work uninteresting and really hard. I started to fall behind with work and it got to the stage where it was impossible to get things done so i dropped out. I was so scared of loosing everything and my parents finding out that i pretended i was still going. However, the uni rang me dad at work today to ask if i wanted to join the course again as they have a place. my parents went mental n made me ring the uni to find out what was going on. Luckly at the time there was no one there that new about it so they are ringing tomorrow. Its all gunna come out and i'm too scared to say anything.
My mum even said she felt suicidal when they rang! I know shes been depressed before and even found letters she wronte saying she wanted to kill herself so ive tried to him everything to stop here doing anything. But now its all gunna come out, i'll get thrown out, loose my family and the only things that keep me going, my horses. I considered suicide alot but my horses kept me going, but if i dont have them i dont think i can cope. Please offer me some advice! I'm so scared! what if my mum did something? its all my fault! I've been so scared for almost a year, n depressed. I dont know what to do
Unfortunatly i got really depressed and found the work uninteresting and really hard. I started to fall behind with work and it got to the stage where it was impossible to get things done so i dropped out. I was so scared of loosing everything and my parents finding out that i pretended i was still going. However, the uni rang me dad at work today to ask if i wanted to join the course again as they have a place. my parents went mental n made me ring the uni to find out what was going on. Luckly at the time there was no one there that new about it so they are ringing tomorrow. Its all gunna come out and i'm too scared to say anything.
My mum even said she felt suicidal when they rang! I know shes been depressed before and even found letters she wronte saying she wanted to kill herself so ive tried to him everything to stop here doing anything. But now its all gunna come out, i'll get thrown out, loose my family and the only things that keep me going, my horses. I considered suicide alot but my horses kept me going, but if i dont have them i dont think i can cope. Please offer me some advice! I'm so scared! what if my mum did something? its all my fault! I've been so scared for almost a year, n depressed. I dont know what to do