Post by Beth&Rosie on May 6, 2016 14:56:12 GMT 1
On Saturday I lost my beautiful Rosie in a freak accident on the XC course at an ODE. We had a rotational fall 4 fences from the end of the course and she never got up. The vet said it was practically instant, she was gone before he got there, and she never suffered. I still have no idea how it happened really, she was always such a consistent and careful XC horse, barely touched a fence in her life. It shouldn't have happened, it wasn't a big (85-90cm maybe?), complicated or difficult fence, the going was great, and we'd been jumping bigger stuff easily just a few days before. She felt amazing the whole day before, and she was absolutely loving the xc. It feels so unfair that I walk away completely unhurt, and she didn't walk away at all. I guess the thing I can take comfort in is that she went down doing what she loved best, xc was always when she felt most alive and happy, and that she never suffered. It doesn't make it hurt less right now but eventually I can remember that. I honestly still can't believe that she's really gone. We were meant to have another 10 years together at least, I was never going to sell her.
She was such a special horse to me, and she taught me so much. I don't know what happens to my life now she's gone. I had her since I was 14 and she was 5, we would have been together 6 years in August. Together we did things I never though I'd be able to do, and she really taught me how to be a good rider and a good horsewoman. Even though she let other people ride her, she was really a one person horse, and I was so lucky to be her person for 5 1/2 amazing years. I used to freeze up and start crying when jumps got over 80cm and had never jumped xc. Just 2 weeks ago we were flying the novice level XC fences in lessons, last month we jumped a 1m05-1m10 SJ course, in October we came 3rd in our first 1m hunter trial. But as well as all that she was my best friend. She could always make me laugh and smile, I just needed to see her to remember everything that was right and good with my life. The riding was brilliant, but I know that if the time came that I couldn't ride her, I wouldn't care at all, as long as we were together. She wasn't an easy horse, she was quirky and opinionated, but she was mine and I loved her more than anything. If you can have a soulmate in horse form, then she was mine. No horse will ever replace her or be quite what she was to me, that I can tell.
I don't know what happens now I don't have her anymore. I'm not going to give up riding, I would miss it, and everyone at my yard, too much. What did other people do after? How did you cope?
She was such a special horse to me, and she taught me so much. I don't know what happens to my life now she's gone. I had her since I was 14 and she was 5, we would have been together 6 years in August. Together we did things I never though I'd be able to do, and she really taught me how to be a good rider and a good horsewoman. Even though she let other people ride her, she was really a one person horse, and I was so lucky to be her person for 5 1/2 amazing years. I used to freeze up and start crying when jumps got over 80cm and had never jumped xc. Just 2 weeks ago we were flying the novice level XC fences in lessons, last month we jumped a 1m05-1m10 SJ course, in October we came 3rd in our first 1m hunter trial. But as well as all that she was my best friend. She could always make me laugh and smile, I just needed to see her to remember everything that was right and good with my life. The riding was brilliant, but I know that if the time came that I couldn't ride her, I wouldn't care at all, as long as we were together. She wasn't an easy horse, she was quirky and opinionated, but she was mine and I loved her more than anything. If you can have a soulmate in horse form, then she was mine. No horse will ever replace her or be quite what she was to me, that I can tell.
I don't know what happens now I don't have her anymore. I'm not going to give up riding, I would miss it, and everyone at my yard, too much. What did other people do after? How did you cope?
