Post by bethspring on Nov 13, 2013 21:52:40 GMT 1
Ok, this is a very VERY long story, but i'll try to keep it as brief as i can....
My name is Beth, i'm 23, i live in Scotland. I suffer with depression and a degree of PTSD, which is a result of lots of personal issues i won't go into here.
I've been around horses since i was 3, and owned ponies growing up - however, i had a bad fall when i was about 10 and ended up breaking my left arm in the process which knocked my confidence quite a bit - i haven't ridden since - but i'm working on getting better with this!
Three years ago, my mum bought a gorgeous warmblood x thoroughbred gelding, Dan. He's a gorgeous boy, and we are looking to have him schooled properly next year, since he will be 5 in April.
Earlier this year, my depression reached a level which was horrendous, almost completely unmanageable, and, since animals help with all sorts of issues, i decided i was on the hunt for a horse which was completely my own - i'm not sure whether that is a selfish desire or not... ANYWAY. after months of searching i found Spring. She is warmblood x welsh pony, and at the time was 8 months old, and not weaned.
Her breeder assured me that Spring had been halter broken, weaned and was well on the way to being a well-mannered young lady - such absolute LIES, but of course i didn't know this until later.
I traveled to Wakefield to see her, and it was love as first glance - Spring was perfect and i knew i had to have her. Four days later, i brought her back to Scotland, introduced her to Dan, and they fast became firm friends.
I spent all the hours possible with her - which is saying something as i work 37 hours a week - and we were getting on great, with her learning her manners, albeit slowly.
In March, however, Spring began to turn her back towards me, and at one stage kicked out, catching me on my upper leg - hurts like nothing i have ever felt before! I think the issue may have been the beginning of her first heat season, but again, i'm unsure.
The problem i have is that although the bruise i had from my gorgeous girl has healed and faded, i have serious confidence issues around her now. I desperately don't want to give her up, and lately i have been gaining confidence slightly, but still, i am nervous around her (understandably i feel).
Any tips or hints anyone could give me to help me build both my confidence and Spring's would be most welcomed.
Sorry for the essay!
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My name is Beth, i'm 23, i live in Scotland. I suffer with depression and a degree of PTSD, which is a result of lots of personal issues i won't go into here.
I've been around horses since i was 3, and owned ponies growing up - however, i had a bad fall when i was about 10 and ended up breaking my left arm in the process which knocked my confidence quite a bit - i haven't ridden since - but i'm working on getting better with this!
Three years ago, my mum bought a gorgeous warmblood x thoroughbred gelding, Dan. He's a gorgeous boy, and we are looking to have him schooled properly next year, since he will be 5 in April.
Earlier this year, my depression reached a level which was horrendous, almost completely unmanageable, and, since animals help with all sorts of issues, i decided i was on the hunt for a horse which was completely my own - i'm not sure whether that is a selfish desire or not... ANYWAY. after months of searching i found Spring. She is warmblood x welsh pony, and at the time was 8 months old, and not weaned.
Her breeder assured me that Spring had been halter broken, weaned and was well on the way to being a well-mannered young lady - such absolute LIES, but of course i didn't know this until later.
I traveled to Wakefield to see her, and it was love as first glance - Spring was perfect and i knew i had to have her. Four days later, i brought her back to Scotland, introduced her to Dan, and they fast became firm friends.
I spent all the hours possible with her - which is saying something as i work 37 hours a week - and we were getting on great, with her learning her manners, albeit slowly.
In March, however, Spring began to turn her back towards me, and at one stage kicked out, catching me on my upper leg - hurts like nothing i have ever felt before! I think the issue may have been the beginning of her first heat season, but again, i'm unsure.
The problem i have is that although the bruise i had from my gorgeous girl has healed and faded, i have serious confidence issues around her now. I desperately don't want to give her up, and lately i have been gaining confidence slightly, but still, i am nervous around her (understandably i feel).
Any tips or hints anyone could give me to help me build both my confidence and Spring's would be most welcomed.
Sorry for the essay!
x