any suggestions please

[natty]

im feeling quite happy today (my OH thinks im not though) because my OH is giving me tomorrow morning with the horses all on my own to start tackling my confidence issue.

my OH thinks im really upset about it and that i want him there for safety but he only thinks that because i want him to feel proud of me tomorrow WHEN (being positive) i have managed to come out feeling happier.

i have decided though because i dont have any plans for the day (OH is taking and picking my girl up from playschool) that i am not going to rush and maybe just sit out side the field and maybe have a drink and cigarette and wait for them to come to me and when i feel the boost i will then do it.

does anyone have any suggestions on some stuff i can do with rosie baring in mind shes in with my daughters dartmoor and they both get jealous if ones getting attention and the others not which then results in them both taking off bucking and playing. i do plan on giving them both equal amounts of attention but being only me i can only do 1 at a time.

[milo]

well being as i'm a nervous nelly myself, i can honestly say that the best way i came to overcome my fears was to just get on and do the stuff that i wanted to do, i kept asking others to help me and promises were made but nobody actually came to help me so one fine sunny day i just decided to saddle up and get on and off i went, this is with a break of about 4 months for both me and my horse either i was injured or he was but he was so good and i found that was the biggest confidence boost of all, jusat tell yourself you can do it, think happy thoughts and enjoy yourself what ever you do even if you do just sit in the field.

[natty]

thank you milo and i no what you mean about no one helping i was supposed to have a friend help me and admittedly she did help with a few things but then she couldnt be bothered.

im very lucky tho that although i was let down by 1 friend i have more people that will help me in other ways. later this month im going to a stud yard for the day where the owner is going to let me handle her horses and talk to me about my confidence issue with rosie.
also when rosie goes away to be backed the lady doing it has offered to help me aswell so i am getting plenty of help that way but now i think i need to try and do something with no supervision *feeling like a child again*

im really hopeful that tomorrow i can write about how much i enjoyed it and how everything went perfect, i think the only thing that will make it a bad experience is if the farmer is in the next field with tractors/cows or bikes but if he is i will have to be a bit cheeky and tell him to go away