Just want to thank those again who took the time to reply, I'm sorry I haven't posted sooner but haven't felt like talking much about this.
I have now had my endoscopy as well as several other tests and scans and numerous blood checks and still have no set diagnosis, my blood work is not quite right, then they re test and it's normal then a week later it's off again. Nothing came back from the endoscopy (not a procedure I ever want to endure again ), ultra sounds, scans, x-rays all showing nothing, I am thoroughly fed up. Last week I didn't, well couldn't, eat from Saturday to Wednesday and the vomiting was terrible, I have taken to hastling my GP every time now in hope that it will get me somewhere I swear I have spent more time in that surgery than I have at home recently. After last weeks episode I am waiting for tests results - which I should get on Thursday - and if they show nothing then I am hoping that the NHS will agree to me having a specialised scan (payed to see a private consultant a few weeks ago and that is what they have recommended and the only way to diagnosis what he suspects it is although he said the nhs don't rputinely test for it). I really would just like a diagnosis now as until then I will keep thinking the worst and paranoid that they are missing something serious. I have just about managed to stop googling my symptoms now as I have had myself dead several times over but it's not easy when it's been going on for so long.
As for work, I have not been back and I don't think I will be, I have checked my contract and entitled to SSP, which is all I was getting paid the first time round as well so that's fine. TBH I am at the stage now I just want to be well and I can't cope with the stress of working with someone like that right now.
I have got Ori advertised now, it was not a decision that was made lightly heart nearly one but have listened to my head this time and if I take myself out the equation it seems the most sensible thing to do. I am hoping/praying that I can find someone to take her on long term loan as I would hate to pass her onto an uncertain future. I just do not have the energy to do her justice, if she was the type of horse that could be left for a few days or weeks and picked up again then it would be okay, but shes' not she needs consistent work and deserves someone who can give her more.
We have a new court day through and my partner has been better since I haven't been well I think it kinda jolted him into sorting himself out. So here's hoping the sheriff will see sense and just allow us to have the child, some people do not deserve the title "mother" & in this case it really is beggars belief that they are considering giving her more access.
Sorry you're still having a rough time Wills, that really is grim for you. Just off the top of my head - are you on a private water supply? An old friend of mine, years ago, had similar problems to yours for months and months before they realised that their private water supply had something nasty leaching into it from somewhere. They got it sorted - and she was absolutely fine, to everyone's great relief.
Glad the job situation is working out. Really hope everything else comes right for you too. xx
Post by horsefodder on Mar 15, 2015 23:19:58 GMT 1
Hi, I went through a very similar experience, had blood poisoning, recovered and then kept getting ill, exhausted all the time, eventually diagnosed with ME, left high stress job (not my choice) ended up working part time with heavy horses, something good came out of it, I would see your GP and ask him about CFS/ME