Prince (The Dark Lord) 21.04.1983- 24.01.2009

[amandajr123]

Prinee, I miss you every day big guy!!

Life without you is so quiet, I hate it!

I just hope that you are happy and have forgiven me for the decision I had to make for you? I have never seen you look at me like that before I think you were telling me that you were ready to go to Rainbow Bridge? You looked right into my soul that day.

Please wait for me. I want to see you in Rainbow Bridge. I cant wait to be able to feel and smell your fur, just to be able to bury my face in your fur, heaven!! I cant wait for you to be your cheeky self, in my pockets trying to get carrots and apples. Just the way you arch your neck and put your head to one side makes my heart melt. You have taken a part of me with you son!! I don't think I will ever recover from loosing you.

I am trying not to be sad, your dad and Peach keep telling me that you wouldn't want me to be sad, but I cant help it lad I miss you more than life itself. I will try to think of you when you were playing in the outdoor with your dad. God I miss you.

You were always there for me through everything, you taught me so much. I just hope that I gave you everything that you wanted?

Please let me know that you are OK handsome.

I will love you always, don't forget me!

xxxxxxxxxxx

[ardentlover]

((((((((((((hugs to you)))))))))). x

[K8]

Rip prince. Wait for you mummy on rainbow bridge. xxxx

[amandajr123]

Thank you guys

I have never lost a horse before!! How do you get through it. The grief is enormous. I just feel so empty. He was my furry soulmate.

I miss him so much

xx

[ardentlover]

They say time is the best healer........having lost my horse over 2 years ago, vowing never to replace her, i haven,t and never will. Persoanlly for me, in time when getting upset i would look at both sides of the coin, in that the reason she had to go, and the what if! But every time the thinking of the reason why she had to go, and the releif she must of felt makes me feel at ease at what i did. Yes she looked at me, like yours, that was a very good way of putting it, "that look". Heartbroken you will be because you are still very raw, but in time you will reason with yoourself why you said goodbye. if you typed the age correctly!!!gosh she did well in life, you must be one good carer. I cannot to this day look at a picture, but with reasoning i have put closure on it, that day, and think and talk about the days that were good. You too, will. take care x. sorry for rambling but you will go on girl coz there,s 2 others that need ya

[amandajr123]

Thanks Ardentlover, you made me cry. Not that I have really stopped!!! He was an old boy he was 25 years old and proud. Even the vet said that he was remarcable for his age!!! I am trying to put closure on it and I am sure in time I will. We were lucky as he wasnt ill for ages it happened overnight and he wasnt in any pain.

Thanks for your kind words, they really do help
xxx

[tl]

So hard isn't it. Looking for the head over the door, expecting to hear that special call. The hairs in the brush..... the hoof print in the soil.

It's a difficult time just now but it will get better. Be easy on yourself knowing that you did the right thing, and hold fast to those special and very happy memories. Prince will never seem very far away.

Sympathy and hugs. xx

[jakeandbarneysmum]

Time will help, but he will always be with you. I lost my boy after 25 years together (he was 31). That was 9 years ago. I still miss him, and will never forget him, but the good memories rise up to the surface eventually, helping to squash the sad ones. Seeing a much loved animal through to the end is the hardest thing we have to do for them, but in a way, the most important.

I occasionally dream about my boy, and it's as if he's brought back to life, which is a wonderful feeling, if a bit sad when I wake up! I know I did the right thing for him at the end, as I'm sure you did.

Never say never about looking for a new friend. I truly believed that I could never find a horse that would fill the place my old boy left. 8 months after he died, I did buy another horse. We had a roller coaster ride for a few years, and I think there was resentment that he wasn't my old horse (or ANYTHING like him!!). But, 8 and a half years on, he is as important to me as my first horse was. He's different, and has not, and cannot ever, replace my first horse, but he is very very special. It would be sad for you to miss out on that possibility.

Prince is at peace now - no more struggles. Keep on keeping on, and you will feel better in time.

(((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[mozann]

Try and picture the good times.

Forgive yourself, dont carry guilt as an extra burden, grief is hard enough! You know you did it for all the right reasons, there was no choice.

I carry a picture, have even more round the house and talk to Mozart constantly, it's been 6 months since I had him PTS.

Enjoy your other 2, but dont force the smiles and happiness, allow yourself time to grieve. It is enormous, I still tip toe round the emotional hole he left each day and have to be careful not to fall in each night.

Hugs and sympathy

[amandajr123]

Thank you everyone that has replies to me!!

Mozann I jnow that you are right. Thanks you for your kind words.
Its good to hear from others that have had to make the same soul distroying decison.

I know I will never forget him. The guilt right now is overwhelming and I am tired of constantly crying but I also know that it will get better with time.

[wills]

R.I.P Prince. Sorry to hear about your loss, as many have said time is a great healer, i have lost 2 horses, one 5 years ago and one 15months ago i think of them both everyday and everytime im at the yard i remember there own special ways. After a while you will be able to think of them and not think of the heart break and remember all the good things and special days and all the things he taught you. Its the hardest thing to decide when there time is up, but im in no doubt that you did the right thing for your special boy xx

[amandajr123]

Hi again

Well today is not a good day!!

Prince's stable has been let and another horse will be in ther when I go and see my other horse tonight. I am just on my way there now. This is still not getting any better for me and I miss him beyond anything I have ever known. My other horse lives next door to his old stable so its a bit hard to gett away from it all really. Here we go!!

[laurajane]

Hello Prince's mum

I have just read your sad news..nothing any of us can say will take away the sense of loss at losing your best friend.

We have lost three of our much loved friends since 2004...

Our little girl who was 9 was taken away from us because of vet error and we still feel her loss today, she was our baby, we bred her, loved her and had to lose her.

My old man, was in his 30th year when I made the decision in 2006 to say goodbye at the end of the day I knew it was right...but still it does not make the hurt any less.

October 2008 we said goodbye to my daughter's best friend..8 years they had been friends and soul mates they had become...

as I said to my daughter, "he knows you love him and he deserves the respect that loves shows that you have made this decision, yes it will be hard, it is the touch, the smell and the physical that you will crave and miss the most, but look deeper, go to his special place, walk your special rides and listen to the wind, he is there with you just open your mind"

please what you did you did for him and not for you....

"I am here mum listen to the wind that bounces your hair...and I am whole and feel good"

He will watch you when you work with another horse...always helping, just listen to your thoughts....think of the joy, love and friendship that you shared and your heart will fill with warmth...he will always be at your side..x

[amandajr123]

Ohh Laurajane you made me cry when I read your mail.

I am sat in work late in the day getting ready to go home to see my other beautiful horse and you made me cry!! What a lovely thought that he will always be with me in the wind all around me!! I hope he is I just long to smell him or hear him in the breeze. I think I will go out and walk the walks we used to do thats a really good idea.
You must have been devistated when you lost your horses!! The pain of loosing 1 is unbearable but to loose 3 god that must be awful!!

Thanks you so much for your mail I will try to think of him all around me. Its so hard when I just feel like I let him down. I know in my heart that it was the right decision but I am still fighting with myself over the whole day.

Thank you
xxx

[laurajane]

Hi Amanda

I am here if you need to talk about Prince...sometimes if you just have someone to talk to about things that you did and the fun that you had it helps...

Keep strong what you decided what right don't let guilt, thought or anything take that away...Prince knows that and loves you for it.

If you need a pm to talk more just ask ...xxx

ps....look for the thread of Bay Bever Boy (Fred) 16th Oct 06..that was my old boy.

Also put some pictures up would love to see them when you are ready..xx